Paranoid

par·a·noid  (pr-noid)

adj.

1. Relating to, characteristic of, or affected with paranoia.

2. Exhibiting or characterized by extreme and irrational fear or distrust of others: a paranoid suspicion that the phone might be bugged.

I'm sitting in class and all the irrational fear just suddenly appear out of no where and I can't seem to understand what leads to this. Took the definition of paranoid from thefreedictionary. Well.. my paranoid just isn't from anyone. It isn't the first time that it happens to me and sometimes its quite suffocating because of the constant thought of it. 

Sitting inside class and all I'm thinking of is like how easy it seems for DNA to mutate and simple replacement or inclusion can lead to detrimental effects. Gahhhhhh. The other day Kai just talked about something that made me so so paranoid. Just like how I was paranoid when I learnt about hematology D: 

That aside, I met up with the girls yesterday and talked about so many things. Like what Jess was saying, its true that all of us have grown up and things are changing. It's the real obvious change in the topics we talk about and the things we do and it really seemed like the age have caught up to us. Stepping into the 20s sounds scary as all of us are no longer teens, all of us are expected to grow up and deal with things responsibly. I have a goal/dream that I want to achieve and I want them to do it with me. I believe that as long as we work together as a team as we used to, we can work some results out. Something that belongs just to us ^^ Looking forward to graduation so that we can start working on it together. 

Thinking of so many things that have to be done when school ends officially. I'm only left with 5 days of lesson. The first thing that I need to settle is the university application tomorrow. I don't know how the situation is going to be D: I have a list of courses that I want to go, but I don't know if I'm going to apply for some of it. I just want to finish school asap and move on to the next phase of life. 

7 years of friendship and still counting