Things happen for a reason

Its 4am in the morning but I just felt that I should post something. It's been awhile since I blogged cause I've been rushing my report and YES!!

I just mailed out the finalized one. 

Just waiting for the last green light before I submit it. So if there was a 1 tonne weight on my shoulder, half of it is gone! I just have to finish up the slides and practice for presentation next week. I'm gonna be the first one on the first day. Just pray hard that everything will be smooth sailing~~

It's the last day of November, last day of internship as well. So many things happened today and the overwhelming feelings and emotions I experienced today was just... so new. The feeling was just so confusing. It's like I was supposed to feel angry, but then I couldn't find the reason to be. Things just popped out here and there and I wasn't feeling very good about it. So I resorted to food. >< It's like how it all used to be. Oh gosh. I only had a banana and milk. 

Food therapy is just so sinful ><

I just so so puzzled. Why were so many things happening to me?? I guess it all turned out for one reason - so that I will bump into the PERSON at that PLACE at the TIME. I mean, why would I be experiencing so many hiccups in one day? I took a cab that didn't accept NETS and the uncle told me I can go withdraw. He stopped at a petrol kiosk and didn't stop the meter -.- And I missed the bus that I needed to take to NUS and then I took the right bus in the wrong direction in the afternoon. When I went to buy food, there's this lady there as well that talked to me and took  up a little bit of my time. 

It's just so scary when I think about all these. When I think back to that date when I saw that very photo, it made it looked so obvious. Now I don't know if I should follow my instincts, there were so right from that point of time till now about this issue. GOSH. I will definitely love to keep living in denial, but can I? I should do something. I guess that's why I was chosen to know about all these. But how am I supposed to keep the damage to the minimal? And the encounter of my supervisor yesterday made it even more worse. 

Just so many thoughts in my head now. 

I guess I better some sleep or something. 

Please don't let me be right this time round. Just this time.